have you ever....?

ooh blank page, my fave;) so wts there to say this fine afternoon? fuk alll! ive been well frustrated 2day, even as we speak my fingers arent movin as fast as i wud like, so ill leave them behind, if yu cant read wt i type then im sopz kk ?arghhh i liek musik cos it makes me angry or atleast lests me relz\sae tyhis jdpty otg dfoanget d'f;pkk;k no my words tneed to make sense, kavi stop it...!! kk i back aor ami who knows zll ai kow is tnat worda te in the wawuwordsa re the enemey of the wrl.d.

i dont know what it is about me that stops me expressing anger. from time to time i do let bits out but its not nearly enough to remain emotionally healthy. i think its because we live in such a anti-anger/emotive and pro- logical age. fuk locke and mills. now u wud think that ws anger right. im afraid that ws irony. that makes me even more angry.

anger doesnt get u any where. u start shoutin at a bank manager, he'll say "calm down sir". u smash an RBS window and suddenly ur a criminal! protest gets u nowhere simply because theyre angry. the french were angry, and starving, for how many years before they decided that theyd kill their king?

i get upset alot, probz cos its like the closest thing to anger. im upset right now. is there a difference between being annoyed and being angry? u kno im contemplating whether to post this.... lol if i dont then kavi u are actuli talkin 2 urself:p that made me smile

i suppose a crappy post will make my 50th post extravaganza look all the more impressiv;) hmm i think ive cheered up. lets start the post:D

have u ever stared at ur name? now im talkin to asian ppl here in particular.i spose tanjil is the only asian reader i have. well i ws lookin at my name for like 20 mins KAVI... thats my name! i am defined by those 4 letters. if some one sees those letters they think of me. that word is my representative. kavi. its kinda a dum name. kavi. wt names begins with a K? LOL kate. how cud i 4get:p i actulu snorted juice out of my nose wen i realised that. kate oh kate.... mmmmm.. the things i wud do to kate. she'd be left with no ear lobes and with a mohican...mmm. actuli i dnno about kate. i heard she gt thirsty in a male changin room once... lool kk thats enuf. i found out that i am part of a family thats unbelievably racist. now surprisingly i am not actually a racist. racist jokes mock racists. well atleast i think theyre sposed to. but my mother and my auntie were upset about goin to a restraunt the other day, and here it is, because they knew ther wud be muslim, thats right real muslims eatin in the same ROOM as them. outrageous reli. i surprised the place didnt blow up. hav u ever lookd at an explosion on tv and thought hmmm i cud blates survive that. i didnt realise how many trees there are on my road:S are their trees on every road? i spose not. its weird how i never see trees as living things. well i do on paper, in text books and to promote my rather illogical vegetarianism. god im so tired. u kno wt? i think im gna have some coffee, its been so long since ive seen my friend. brb

...... mmmm... i actuli have goosebumps now. a mug of coffee is like a woman, u hold them close and get ther sweet nectar, and then send them back to the kitchen wen ur done. good god, why did i giv this stuff up? lol u myt not but i havent been typing in like 10 mins. mmmm..im soz guys im gnna end this here, i wnt some alone time...peace