www.kavizzle.blogspot.com B-sides

heres a bunch of stuff i never published for one reason or another.

14/12/08 - untitled
"My head rests low on this soft pillow,
I wait with a hot ear for sleep's numb embrace.
The winter leaves a cold nose upon my face.

I think of things that i know
will send me to my happy place
to shield myself from my own disgrace."

24/01/09 - untitled
"Word! so i is gna let da blak hlf of me take ova dis post ..innit blad? lol im so not black! "

24/03/09 - at the cabinet
"i met alan milburn today, i told him i dropped the idea of taking politics at uni to do law. He laughed."

12/04/09 - 50th post extravaganza
"yes folks this is my 50th post. i thinkin of whether i should so a lil montage of my blog so far, or like a lil clip show but i dnno wt parts of the blog are good and it wud take so much effort that theres reli no point. also i believe that holiday depression has kikd in. i may be an uber loner who shies away from social interaction when its in abundance, however now it has been replaced by morning lay ins and revision, i feel incredibly lonely. anyway this is meant to be a celebration. but is there anything to be proud of? if anything having a blog survive this long is something to be ashamed like continuing relations with someone reli reli offtime...u guys know who im talkin about lol! hehe its weird how the slightest thing can cheer u up. yh so i think im gnna keep it simple and just do some megapost. thing is no1 likes reading some huge post, its daunting. atleast i fukkin post boys. for fuck sake! all i ask is for something to read from my peers and look at wt bullshit i get. end up spending my time readin the fukkin bbc news website. hmmm im angry. any other emotions i can express? well i stopped typing for like 5 mins cos those thoughts were mean and bad, not for postin, i alredi got in some shit for talkin about rubenism. thats another thing that pisd me off. its perfectly alright for me to go up to ruben and call him a cuntbag and thats bein funny and teasin, but if i am being clearly non sequitur, yes tanjil i looked it up and added it to my vocabulary, in written form then i become a harsh dikhed. bullshit. see this is what a blog shud be like, a teenager whining. anyway! celebration. oh yh i reli like this coke advert music, its called open hapiness, it has the patd guy in it. coolness. hows on earth does music sound happy. and dont bullshit george about major and minor kk. i mean why does it SOUND happy? how can something sound happy. i might actuli stop here and pik up 2mozzle guys, it wil be the first time i save it as a draft!! ooooo revolutionary. god being in a bad mood doesnt help at all......

good afternoon. where to pick up ay? i ws wochin the speaker on bbc iplayer, and i saw haroon. that filled me with jealousy, why couldnt I be that gangsta?:( speaking is so east for some ppl. mostly dikheds. why do dikheds always have the mst to say? *cough*bakr*cough*max*cough*. lol its not as subtle in written form. wen smart ppl talk lots then they become snobs. not u tanjil, ur not patronize at all. oh yh does "sharples" ring a bell? sad ol' kavi googled names and came across some information:p. lol this post is totali showin how mean i am! im surprised i havent talkd about ruben more. i dont like this post. - 13/4/09 draft"

13/04/09 - 50th post extravaganza (2)
"abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz..... 6 seconds not bad. so welcome to my 50th post. cherry coke in one hand, and a deperately lonley teenager, mmhmm its bloggin time. i need to stop my cherry coke intake. lol some guys just kikd a football at my front door. my doors fine, so i spose its good to see ppl still playin football. any other day and i wuda been pissd off. i wudnt have sed anything, but i wuda been annoyed. whoah some nymphets just passd my house, lol this window is shwing alot today. and by nymphets i mean they were pretty yung. like 6 months. lol nah. but yh probz nt legal. man im kinda sik arent i. so nehoo merrett is hosting some sort of social gathering tonight, shud be shit. lol i hope he reads this afterwards. i actuli had a long post half way done with the same title as this, but i didnt publish it and is still in my drafts cos i didnt like the direction it ws heading in. theres a first for everything ay! yh i might release sometime in the future. its not nice wen u realise u have to change how u act or ur behaviour. i kno how racist feel. or smokers. or paedophiles. mainly cos im all three. holidays are shit. lets face it. holidays = revision = struggle = promises to self to work harder. ugh! tanjil if ur gnna make another point about hw u dont revise u can just go and fuk off kk? gess which website i ws on the other day. www.ukgermanconnection.org. hmmm sharples, thats an odd surname. anyhoo. lol im so sad. thats why i have a blog i suppose. and its my 50th post YAY! 50 posts... thats reli reli sad:p im gonna publish this blog in book form one day. i wonder if it will sell. or be heavily censored. if im gnna be PM this blog cud reli make or break my election campaign....mainly break. unless i ws a libdem or respect candidate. god wt sad loserish parties. actuli nick cleggs views on the lisbon treaty are quite sensible. but thats all. shud i change the title of this blog? i ws just lookin at it and its kinda shit. what happens on msn shud stay on msn.... what does that even mean? i suppose that a load of crazy shit happens on msn, and shud not continue into REAL life. it does happen alredi i think. ppl are totally less shy on msn. also u can be funnier cos u dnt have to be quik to be witty, u just have to think of something funny to say in ur own time. thats wen kavi shines:D its reli cloudy outside. shit. i get so bored at parties that i just look at the stars alot of the time. i even made my own constellations. i found this one that looked like a bear, so i calld it ursa major. i dnt wnna giv it one of those shiity names the greeks made up."

peace

My 50th Post

hi guys and welcome to my fiftieth post. is that how u spell 5oth? it may also be last post:( i was thinking and maybe its time to put these juvenile, lonely yet theraputic posts behind me, and 50 is a nice round number. so for dramatic effect plz gasp or look in shock:O:O. so put your seat belts on and brace yourself. i wonder how to embed music into these blogs...i dnt reli wnna put a video in but like some sad music. its kinda weird how music can sound happy or sad. and all u musik folk dont bullshit me about major n minor. i ws lookin at the stars yday cos i have a flatroof outside my bedroom window and no1 ws home and it w reli nice. lukkily it ws (IS) april so i got to see ursa major. (i thought of this cos i sed "dont bullshit me about major n minor" funny how the mind works) yh i also saw ursa minor. the greeks had some dum stories:p zeus is such a player tho. hmmm im not reli in blog mode. i shuda just made like a montage :p or like a clip show. actuli we all hate clip shows. its like u get paid to think of new material dont recycle, u were never eco friendly. malheuresment i dont get paid... not yet anyway. im gnna publish this blog one day. itll give my election campiagn a boost. bnp have gt a good chance of gettin a few european seats this yr, claims jaki smith. lol i totaly apoligize for the spellin of her name. hw do u spel it? jaqui? anyways its a dum name. i always get mixd up between smith and harman. women all look the same to me. just like chinese ppl. i though how it ws jokes how harriet harman gt blamed for her husband lookin at porn. ( btw im sure a lot of u cant tell wen im being funny, ofcourse it was jaqui smith not harman that involved in the scandal, i INTENTIONALLY switched them up 2 make a point.) anyways, i wud pissd if i were a woman and my husband lookd at porn, and then to get blamed for it is just like lol. only with new labour. i ws tryin to defend the tories the other day. they arent the anti christ, they ARE ppl, but if u defend something ur clearly one of them. fukkin hypocrites. dont ask me why they are, it just seems that way, i havent actuli thought about it. hmm i shud dum this post down just in case matt decides to read it. so man utd are practically out of the champions league. i hate how itv reporters BLATANTLY support man utd. god the bias is not good. theyr even worse wen it comes to england in sport. i support england just like the rest of us, but i expect ppl who work for the bbc, not jonathan ross ofcourse, to act with a little finesse. do NOT refer to england as WE when commentating, its just not right. particularly if ur gnna be broadcasting in wales and scotland, but still even in england as well. i think international sports ws created blates cos of racism. xcept the olympics. actuli maybe that aswell. it just proves which nation are genetically better. or atleast were before globalisation and all the pakis were shipped over here. lol this is not a happy post. this tree opposite my house has reli amazed me u kno. i saw a comment on post b4 about wen i talkd about a tree and wteva, theres a tree right outside my house. and basikli the branches were cut off cos theyr were messin up the telephone lines. now its growing new branches and atm they look like roots and theyr growin leaves. amazing blud! the amount of time i spend starin out of the window jst proves how lively my life is. whos fault is that? sigh. i think too much. i keep tellin myself it IS better to be socrates dissatisfied. im not sure tho. i dnt understand hw philosophy students get any work, u just think and think and u cud just keep thinkin until u end up living in ur own fantasy world. an ideal that has no chance of actuli existing. well unless u can stop thinkin about it and do something about it. lol the house opposite mine all gt burglar alarms installd now. they all gt burgled. i cant afford one. wt a waste of money, a burglar wud have nothing to steal in my house, xcept a whole load of carrier bags my mum collects from tesco and sainsburys. i miss my mum. shes in instanbul, so i gtta do the washin up n shit. i actuli had to go out and buy milk! 2 be fair milk lasts like 20x longer nows shes away cos she drinks tea like 5 times a day. its crazy. well ill call it a day there. perhaps i may return to this blog, but not for a while now. take care and peace.

Hello Mr Reader

Hello Mr Reader,
Mr i am going to read wategwann's blog,
Mr i was on the internet so i thought i might as well read this,
Mr i ran out of sites to look at on the internet that i read this blog,
Mr i spend my entire life on my PC,
Mr i can do everything i need to on this piece of machinery,
Mr i can't figure out why im sitting on this same seat so much,
Mr i don't like my life being a routine,
Mr i can't change because reform is not part of the routine,
Mr i don't fit in,
Mr i don't think its my fault i don't fit in,
Mr i blame society for my troubles,
Mr i am a Marxist/Anarchist/Nationalist/Racist,
Mr i know when i'm wrong,
Mr i am never wrong though,
Mr i am unique,
Mr i am so different,
Mr i am miles ahead of my time,
Mr i will show the world,
Mr i hate the world,
Mr i am so good looking,
Mr i don't like how everyone's jealous of me
Mr i don't need to try,
Mr i will leave and never come back,
Hello Mr reader, and goodbye.

lol?

this blog in microsoft word

have you ever....?

ooh blank page, my fave;) so wts there to say this fine afternoon? fuk alll! ive been well frustrated 2day, even as we speak my fingers arent movin as fast as i wud like, so ill leave them behind, if yu cant read wt i type then im sopz kk ?arghhh i liek musik cos it makes me angry or atleast lests me relz\sae tyhis jdpty otg dfoanget d'f;pkk;k no my words tneed to make sense, kavi stop it...!! kk i back aor ami who knows zll ai kow is tnat worda te in the wawuwordsa re the enemey of the wrl.d.

i dont know what it is about me that stops me expressing anger. from time to time i do let bits out but its not nearly enough to remain emotionally healthy. i think its because we live in such a anti-anger/emotive and pro- logical age. fuk locke and mills. now u wud think that ws anger right. im afraid that ws irony. that makes me even more angry.

anger doesnt get u any where. u start shoutin at a bank manager, he'll say "calm down sir". u smash an RBS window and suddenly ur a criminal! protest gets u nowhere simply because theyre angry. the french were angry, and starving, for how many years before they decided that theyd kill their king?

i get upset alot, probz cos its like the closest thing to anger. im upset right now. is there a difference between being annoyed and being angry? u kno im contemplating whether to post this.... lol if i dont then kavi u are actuli talkin 2 urself:p that made me smile

i suppose a crappy post will make my 50th post extravaganza look all the more impressiv;) hmm i think ive cheered up. lets start the post:D

have u ever stared at ur name? now im talkin to asian ppl here in particular.i spose tanjil is the only asian reader i have. well i ws lookin at my name for like 20 mins KAVI... thats my name! i am defined by those 4 letters. if some one sees those letters they think of me. that word is my representative. kavi. its kinda a dum name. kavi. wt names begins with a K? LOL kate. how cud i 4get:p i actulu snorted juice out of my nose wen i realised that. kate oh kate.... mmmmm.. the things i wud do to kate. she'd be left with no ear lobes and with a mohican...mmm. actuli i dnno about kate. i heard she gt thirsty in a male changin room once... lool kk thats enuf. i found out that i am part of a family thats unbelievably racist. now surprisingly i am not actually a racist. racist jokes mock racists. well atleast i think theyre sposed to. but my mother and my auntie were upset about goin to a restraunt the other day, and here it is, because they knew ther wud be muslim, thats right real muslims eatin in the same ROOM as them. outrageous reli. i surprised the place didnt blow up. hav u ever lookd at an explosion on tv and thought hmmm i cud blates survive that. i didnt realise how many trees there are on my road:S are their trees on every road? i spose not. its weird how i never see trees as living things. well i do on paper, in text books and to promote my rather illogical vegetarianism. god im so tired. u kno wt? i think im gna have some coffee, its been so long since ive seen my friend. brb

...... mmmm... i actuli have goosebumps now. a mug of coffee is like a woman, u hold them close and get ther sweet nectar, and then send them back to the kitchen wen ur done. good god, why did i giv this stuff up? lol u myt not but i havent been typing in like 10 mins. mmmm..im soz guys im gnna end this here, i wnt some alone time...peace

the post that never was / Q&A

"dude cheerios never tasted so good. those were my thoughts as i ate for the first time in 2 days. thats right folks im gnna do a "simmonds" and talk about what i've done and how my life's been in the last cupla days. weeelll nehoo i had a tummy bug, reli nasty stuff, and i threw up like loadsa times. not just regular throwin up but like propa violent ones, cos it felt like someone was actuli squeezin my stomach real hard. then my mum shouted at me for wastin food."
- kavi

Ugh! i gta start revisin 2day, 7 whole modules to learn, sigh. my god now wonder george finds it so hard writin posts, talkin about ur activities is reli shit.

"dude just start writing, you'll think of things to write once you've got the momentum. also good posts happen by accident, so the longer to write for the more likely you'll have some good content, its just probability, i bet ur glad u did stats now!"
- Julius (kavi's imaginary friend)

not reli, i gta revise it, i mean seriously who names a distribution after a fish? oh yh lol did u see the advert for the new salmon fish finger, its quite funny i recommend u get it on dvd.

"dude i dont kno where ur goin with this quote thing.. but who am i to judge. its funny how i never see u and a mirror in the same room. ahhhh i figured it out! loool! god dude u reli have a ongoing theme goin on dont u... and turn off that beyonce album u've been listenin to it for 2 weeks now!"
- wategwann

dont tell me wt to do, u aint my daddy! not that i listen to him neways. well that ws a useless post, i wonder what name to give it.....

peace