My head hurts, so instead of a real post, i'll just try to give you a little insight

my hed hurts:( 2 much football. music soothes the pain. but i can take the pain. im a REAL man. woof! punctuation fucks up english. i try to use as little as possible. oh the irony. i lack confidence. i feel like criticising my own blog. once more. i need to stop that. i need to stop over sleeping. as well. as being harsh on my self. i ws watching something. i think it was on bbc. yh it defo was. cos it was horizon. shit about body clocks. its not teenagers' fault. they need to over sleep. theyre not lazy. i shud stop insulting jasons laziness then. actuli i dnt. do i? who doesnt?ugh! my hed hurts:( 2 much football.

1) I love looking up - try lookin up right now, ur probly lookin at some ceiling cos ur inside but even thats quite interesting. patterns or paint? outside is the sky, and that really is beautiful, i cud stare at the sky for hours. u notice slight differences each second u stare. its so big, i love the feeling when u comprehend that u are so unimportant in the ways of the universe, takes off the pressure;)

my hed hurts:( 2 much football. i thought i'd drink some hot chocolate to help. seems to be be doing the trick. not that soothing a headache is much of a trick. if a mgician did that. at a party. it wouldnt be very amusing. unless it was in a hospital. lots of people hate hospitals. i wud love to stay in a hopsital. u can just do fuck all. sitting there. i cant do that at home. i get told to do things. since when did doing things help. me. do any thing. lol? doing things is so overrated. but im soo jelus of active people. cos they can be arsed to do things. i need iron tablets. but alot of them arent vegetarian. keepin my conscious clean is more important. than my health. ugh! my hed hurts:( 2 much football.

2) I scrutinise everything i do. i've a habit of defending the undefensible, just to be different. I even argue with myself. in my head theres a constant dialog just explaining why whatever im doing is stupid. "why are u having a shower? u had one yday! people are dying of thirst in africa and ur cleaning ur alredi clean body with how much water? u bastard!" the man in my head isnt very nice....

my hed hurts:( 2 much football. i cant focus. george keeps talkin to me on msn. along with others. who i care less about. but i cant focus on any of them. too many windows. and then theres this. this blog. u kno wt are good about blogs? they let people who dont know u. to kno u more. too bad i dnt hand out this addy 2 easily. i only like ppl who know me. 2 read my racist remarks. keep my external facade. of a lovely young man. not that im seen that way. but i wudnt know. speaking of ppl. that i know. sluts sluts sluts. and on a completley different topic. dutch dutch dutch. ugh! my hed hurts:( 2 much football.

3) i have a huge ego - my god is it big! bigger than mussolini. im the greatest thing thats happened to this universe. fuk wt i sed b4 about my insignificance, im the muther fukking mesiah! but seriously, it sickens me when i realise im looking down on people. i have nothing really.